Life's a Beach

4 months

2011-11-26T00:49:00.000-06:00

3 months

2011-10-26T01:45:00.000-05:00

I finally caught him giggling!

2011-10-18T02:16:00.000-05:00

Halloween/Fall pictures

2011-10-15T19:09:00.000-05:00

I LOVE this picture!

2011-10-09T02:01:00.002-05:00

twins!

2011-10-01T10:37:00.000-05:00

2 months

2011-09-26T12:53:00.000-05:00

Gavin is 2 months old today! He went to the doctor this morning. He weighs 10 lbs 11 oz and is 21.5 inches long. He is a shorty (like me). He had to have 3 shots today. :( He did pretty good. He didn't cry at all with the first one, but the 2nd and 3rd one hacked him off BIG TIME! Once I picked him up though, he calmed down pretty quickly. I love him SO much!

The day he was born.

Roll Tide!

2011-09-24T17:45:00.000-05:00

M-I-C-K-E-Y M-O-U-S-E

2011-09-07T00:01:00.001-05:00

My step sister went to Disney World before Gavin was born. She bought Gavin his first pair of ears. Gavin modeled them today. :)

6 weeks old

I suck at blogging!

2011-09-03T21:07:00.000-05:00

Hey guys! Ever since Gavin came home I have sucked at blogging. :( I will try my best to post more. Gavin is doing okay. We are dealing with tummy issues right now. I HOPE it's not colic, but if he doesn't get better by this weekend I am calling his doctor. It's been a rough few nights.

He has not been weighed recently, but about 2 weeks ago he weighed 7 lbs 13 oz. He has gained exactly a pound since he was born. :)

I LOVE being a mom. It is definitely hard work, but I love Gavin sooo much!

Gavin Update

2011-08-03T00:43:00.000-05:00

Gavin is still in the NICU. :( His oxygen levels have been fine, but when we got to the hospital Saturday morning we received more bad news. Gavin had blood in his stool. I just cried and cried. They did blood work and all that came back fine (Thank God). We cut back on his formula, and the doctor's are just monitoring him. Hopefully he can come home soon! This has been a rough week for me. It's emotionally taken a toll on me. I know he is at a great hospital though, but it's still hard. Just keep my sweet pea in your prayers.

Gavin's Birth Story

2011-07-29T07:09:00.000-05:00

Tuesday afternoon (July 26th) I had my weekly appointment with my OB. They did my NST and Gavin was doing great. They checked my urine, and I had a pretty good amount of protein in my urine. They checked my bp. It was 168/120! Needless to say I was sent to the hospital.

By the time I got to the hospital my bp was a lot lower so I figured they would monitor it for a while then send me home. The nurses came in and told me my doctor was concerned because my bp was still elevated a bit, and I was showing signs of pre-e.

The doctor came in around 5 pm. He did an u/s to see if Gavin was still breeched, and of course he was. Then said to me "We are taking you back at 7 pm for a c section." He explained to me that even though I wasn't sick now that the longer I wait to have the baby, the worse things could get with my pre-e. He would rather take Gavin while I am okay than wait until things get worse, and the risks get higher.

At 7 pm I was wheeled back to the OR. I was a nervous wreck! They gave me a spinal and by 7:30 I was completely numb and the doctor was ready to begin. DF was brought in at 7:30, and Gavin was born at 7:35 pm. He weighed 6 lbs 13 oz and was 18 1/2 inches long.

My csection went great. No problems at all. I was so numb, I felt nothing (not even pressure or pulling). As they sewed me back up, DF took Gavin to the nursery to give him his first bath.

I was suppose to be in recovery for an hour, but because I was doing so well, they only kept me there for about 40-45 minutes. I was wheeled to the room where I anxiously waited to meet Mr. Gavin. Then we got the news. Gavin's oxygen level was lower than they liked. They want it around 95-100 and at times his would drop into the 70's. They monitored him for a while in the well baby nursery, and about an hour and a half after he was born they moved him to the NICU.

He has been in the NICU ever since, but his oxygen level has returned to normal (95-100). He is doing great! They are just keeping him in the NICU in case his numbers drop again, but they don't think he will have that problem again. He just had a hard time transitioning.

He is, by far, the best thing that has ever happened to me. Every time I see him I fall more in love with him.

Gavin update

2011-07-28T04:24:00.000-05:00

Gavin is doing great. He has not been on any oxygen in almost 24 hours. He has lost a little weight (just a few ounces), but they aren't concerned about that. I finally got to change him and feed him! Alan also got to change him and feed him at our last visit. Let's just say Gavin is a lean mean pooping machine! I love him so much!!! Just keep praying for him please. Of course, I couldn't leave without posting more pics! :)

More pics of Gavin

2011-07-27T14:20:00.000-05:00

Here are some more pics of Gavin. I will write about his birth later. I am still sore from the c section. Please pray for Gavin. He is in the NICU. They are closely monitoring his oxygen levels.

Happy Birthday

2011-07-26T22:33:00.000-05:00

Happy Birthday Gavin!

Born 7-26-11 at 7:35 pm

6 lbs 13 oz.

18 1/2 inches

Already like daddy

2011-07-25T22:57:00.000-05:00

Dear Gavin,
Whether you like it or not, you are going to be just like your daddy. He has already been talking about turning you into a comic book, super hero, anime loving nerd. Then, my friend, Shawna, gives me this tonight...

It even has a cape. Don't worry, if you decide you don't like anime, or super heroes, or comics, I will still love you. We'll just lie to daddy when he is around ;)

Baby shower #2

2011-07-24T14:09:00.000-05:00

Gavin you racked up yesterday!

Daddy had to try out your digital thermometer paci. :)

Finally got your bedding!

Rubber ducky that tells if your bath water is too hot.

Corsage Aunt Tracy got for Mommy.

Little pieces of cake. How cute!

Mommy was so excited to get your car seat and stroller!

Some of your family and friends that attended your shower.

10 more days until I can put all my goodies to use. I can't wait to meet you Gavin! I have loved you (and prayed for you) for years! You are so special to me already. It's been a rough journey, but I thank God he gave you to me. I will see you soon.

Love,

Mommy

37 weeks

2011-07-20T00:00:00.001-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 37 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I am gaining weight, and that's all I can say about that. :D

Maternity Clothes: Stretchy and big!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement:He is definitely getting cramped in there. The kicks have slowed down, but he loves to push on me.

Sleep: Once I get comfortable, I sleep pretty good. It's getting comfortable that's the hard part.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew and PB Twix

Cravings : Salads (why couldn't I crave them the whole time?!?)

Symptoms: I not only sound like a beached whale, but I look like one too. I am huge!

Best Moment this week: Went to doctor yesterday, Gavin is scheduled to make his appearance August 3rd via c section. 2 more weeks and I will be a mommy!

Size of baby: 19.13 inches/ 6.30 lbs

Baby is the size of a:

(length)

stalk of swiss chard

36 weeks belly

2011-07-14T21:44:00.002-05:00

36 weeks

2011-07-13T00:00:00.003-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 36 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: still gaining ;)

Maternity Clothes: Stretchy and big!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: Hiccups a LOT!

Sleep: Once I get comfortable, I sleep pretty good. It's getting comfortable that's the hard part.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew and PB Twix

Cravings : Strawberry cake (Ok ANY kind of cake)

Symptoms: I have officially hit the "beached whale" stage. I can't move (getting up/rolling over) without making the whale sound.

Best Moment this week: Gavin is GREAT! I was concerned about his size. I had an u/s yesterday. He weighs around 6 lbs. He is still breeched though. We are looking at a possible c section in 2-3 weeks. EEK!

Size of baby: 18.66 inches/ 5.78 lbs

Baby is the size of a:

(weight)

crenshaw melon

Baby Shower

2011-07-10T18:29:00.001-05:00

My friend, Sabrina, gave me a baby shower today. :)

35 weeks

2011-07-06T19:59:00.000-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 35 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: lets just say I have gained ;)

Maternity Clothes: Stretchy and big!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: He loves to push on me all the time! <3

Sleep: Some nights are okay, and some I hardly sleep at all.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew and PB Twix

Cravings :Anything sweet (which I am trying to be good because of my diabetes)

Symptoms: Same as last week. I have started the penguin walk!

Best Moment this week: Gavin is doing great! No contractions this week. Yay!

Size of baby: 18.19 inches/ 5.25 lbs

Baby is the size of a:

(weight)

honey dew melon

I need a prayer request, please. I said Gavin is doing great (and he is) but the doctor's are concerned about his size. I am measuring large. Which may mean he may be a VERY big baby. I go for an ultrasound Tuesday. To be honest, I am very scared. I just need prayers that he is okay. The whole pregnancy he has measured right on the middle (average). So for him to go from "average" to LARGE baby, scares me!

34 weeks

2011-06-29T16:17:00.000-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 34 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: up 29 lbs

Maternity Clothes: Stretchy and big!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: He loves to push on me all the time! <3

Sleep: Getting VERY hard to sleep!

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew and PB Twix

Cravings : Sweet Tea and Smores (I am not even a big smores fan either...)

Symptoms:How can I put this without giving TMI...um lots of pain and pressure!

Best Moment this week: Gavin decided to stay in a while longer. I went to the doctor yesterday because I was hurting. They hooked me to the fetal monitor and I was having contractions every 3-4 minutes. I was sent to the hospital (30 minutes away). By the time I got there I had already dilated a cm. I was given 2 shots to stop the contractions. Thankfully, the shots worked. He needs to bake a while longer!

Size of baby: 17.72 inches/ 4.73 lbs

Baby is the size of a:

(weight)

33 weeks

2011-06-22T00:00:00.001-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 33 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: up 25lbs

Maternity Clothes: Stretchy and big!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: He loves to push on me if I lay stuff on my stomach.

Sleep: Some nights are good, some nights are rough!

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew and PB Twix

Cravings : Sweet Tea

Symptoms: Things are getting uncomfortable! The doctor told me I needed to rest, and told me to quit Walgreens until after he was born. So no more work for me.

Best Moment this week: Seeing Gavin on the ultrasound. He weighs (as of last Friday) 4 lbs 2 oz.

Size of baby: 17.20 inches/ 4.23 lbs

Baby is the size of a:

(weight)

Happy Birthday

2011-06-19T00:00:00.002-05:00

Happy Birthday Janis! I feel like you are my 2nd mom (and we have never met). You have always been my support system. You have been there for me during the rough times, and the great times. I am hoping we can meet one day. I hope you have an awesome birthday! Love ya!

32 weeks

2011-06-15T07:50:00.000-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 32 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: According to my scales I am still up 23 lbs, but the doctor's scales always are different.

Maternity Clothes: Stretchy and big!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: I had a Mountain Dew (don't tell my Dr.) and he went wild! <3

Sleep: Some nights are good, some nights are rough!

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew and PB Twix

Cravings : Chocolate (Thank God for sugar free)

Symptoms:Work is getting hard. If I have been on my feet longer than 30 minutes my back starts to hurt. :(

Best Moment this week: Gavin had the hiccups (after I drank the mountain dew).

Size of baby: 16.69 inches/ 3.75 lbs

Baby is the size of a:

(weight)

jicama

31 weeks

2011-06-08T06:55:00.000-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 31 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Total weight gain 23 lbs (yikes!)

Maternity Clothes: Stretchy and big!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: Gavin is more active in the morning, and if I lay anything on my stomach.

Sleep:Some nights I sleep great, and some night I hardly sleep at all.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew and PB Twix

Cravings : Chocolate (Thank God for sugar free)

Symptoms: I am getting tired again. I don't know if it's because I am not sleeping well, or if it's just because he is going through a growth spurt.

Best Moment this week: I had my repeat u/s and he cooperated a little better. He was still a stinker, but at least I got a few pics of his face.

Size of baby: 16.18 inches/ 3.31 lbs

Baby is the size of a:

(weight)

4 oranges

Sad news

2011-06-03T20:56:00.000-05:00

I told you last week that my brother in law was in a serious wreck. Well, he passed away this morning. Please pray for the Parker Family.

Sorry this post is so short. I am just not in the mood to talk about it right now. Just pray for this family please. He left behind 2 small children (2 and 6).

Gavin at 30 weeks

2011-06-02T19:55:00.000-05:00

30 weeks

2011-06-01T06:23:00.000-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 30 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Lost 2 lbs (according to my scale). It was 4 lbs, but I slipped on my diet. :(

Maternity Clothes: Stretchy and big!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: Some days he is VERY active and other days it comes and goes.

Sleep: Getting uncomfortable. Some night I sleep okay, and other nights I wake up off and on all night.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew and PB Twix

Cravings : Chocolate (Thank God for sugar free)

Symptoms:besides feeling like a hippo...lower back pain

Best Moment this week: Best Moment: I am doing pretty good on my diet. I go this afternoon for a repeat 3D/4D ultrasound. Let's hope he cooperates.

Size of baby: 15.71 inches/ 2.91 lbs

Baby is the size of a:

large cabbage

Prayer request

2011-05-28T16:23:00.000-05:00

Yesterday morning my brother-in-law had a terrible car accident, and suffered critical injuries. He broke his ribs, crushed his left leg and arm, broke his back, severed his spinal cord, fractured his skull, and this morning he started bleeding from his brain. They did surgery yesterday and removed his appendix, gallbladder, and 1 kidney. He is in surgery right now to put a tube in his brain to reduce swelling, and try to repair his spinal cord, back, and wrist. The doctor's are saying IF he makes it he will never walk again. They are trying to repair his spinal cord so he could at least sit up. They aren't giving him much hope right now.

Please pray for Chris Parker and his family. He has 2 small girls (2 and 6).

29 weeks

2011-05-25T07:29:00.000-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 29 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I have not weighed this week.

Maternity Clothes: I <3 stretchy clothes!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: He was VERY active Monday.

Sleep: Getting uncomfortable. Some night I sleep okay, and other nights I wake up off and on all night.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew and PB Twix

Cravings : Peanut Butter Twix (I will explain below)

Symptoms: heartburn

Best Moment this week: Best Moment: I had a 3d u/s done this week so I go to see him again. Worst Moments: He was a booger during the 3D and would not cooperate. Luckily, I get to go next week and get another u/s done. More bad news....I have gestational diabetes. I went for my test and failed. They are going to start me on a diet, and if that doesn't work, I will have to take meds to control my blood sugar. :( No more PB Twix for me.

Size of baby: 15.2 inches/ 2.54 lbs

They measured Gavin Monday, and he weighs 2 lbs. 11 oz. :)

Baby is the size of a:

butternut squash

28 weeks

2011-05-18T07:28:00.000-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 28 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: +18 lbs (yikes!)

Maternity Clothes: I <3 stretchy clothes

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: He has started kicking harder at times. :)

Sleep: I sleep well, it's the waking up EVERY hour to pee that is causing the problem.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew

Cravings : Peanut Butter Twix

Symptoms: heartburn

Best Moment this week: I am in my 3rd trimester. Yay!!! 12 more weeks to go.

Size of baby: 14.80 inches/ 2.22 lbs

Baby is the size of a:

Chinese cabbage

Belly shot

2011-05-11T13:13:00.000-05:00

27 weeks :)

27 weeks

2011-05-11T00:00:00.000-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 27 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: According to my dad's scale, I lost a pound. YEAH RIGHT! I will find out next week when I go to the doctor. Total gained: 13 lbs.

Maternity Clothes: Stretch pants are my new best friend!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: I LOVE feeling him move! Some days he is more active than others. Monday it seemed like he kicked me all morning.

Sleep: I sleep well, it's the waking up EVERY hour to pee that is causing the problem.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew

Cravings : Peanut Butter Twix

Symptoms: TONS of heartburn!

Best Moment this week: Gavin is still hanging in there. Every day I can keep him in is a blessing. I also celebrated my first "unofficial" Mother's Day. Alan gave me a card and a pin. I cried like a baby. It was so sweet. :)

Size of baby: 14.41 inches/ 1.93 lb.

Baby is the size of a:

head of cauliflower

Let the record state:

2011-05-10T11:27:00.000-05:00

I ate 3, yes THREE, PB Twix yesterday. That's 750 calories. I officially need help. :)

My name is Bridgette, and I am an addict!

2011-05-09T10:27:00.000-05:00

These things are the devil! Do they have a Twix Anonymous class? I need help! I ate 3 yesterday, and I had 1 today for breakfast. I just pray to God they do not stop making them before I have Gavin. If they do, things could get ugly! :) I have had small cravings (I crave things for a few days, and they disappear). This craving is from a force bigger than me. I can't shake it.....

My name is Bridgette, and I am a PB Twix addict.

HI BRIDGETTE!

The card that brought me to tears

2011-05-08T00:40:00.000-05:00

26 weeks

2011-05-05T09:16:00.001-05:00

I am a day behind, but I did not get out of the hospital until yesterday, and just didn't feel like posting. Sorry. :)

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 26 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I am scared to weigh. I ate like a pig in the hospital, and couldn't move around. This could be bad!

Maternity Clothes: I HAVE to go shopping!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: I have a VERY active child!!!

Sleep: I sleep well, it's the waking up EVERY hour to pee that is causing the problem.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew

Cravings : anything and everything

Symptoms: heartburn

Best Moment this week: Gavin is still in my tummy! I just knew after the scare I had, he was going to be born WAY too early!

Size of baby: 14 inches/ 1 2/3 lb.

Baby is the size of a:

English hothouse cucumber

Prayers please!

2011-05-02T10:19:00.000-05:00

I have been in the hospital since friday night. I went in thinking I had a uti. I was actually having contractions and had a SEVERE infection. They admitted me and put me on antibiotics. Saturday morning I was getting ready to be discharged when I started leaking clear fluid.

They checked me and it was amniotic fluid, but the doctor said he did not see ferning (something that happens when you rupture the sac). They closely monitored me and then Sunday I was transferred to a more advanced hospital just in case I went into labor. The doctor here doesn't think my water broke, but he is very concerned about my infection so he put me on 2 antibiotics. They are working, but not fast. So I am here until they see a major improvement.

There is still a chance I could go into labor. I am only 25 weeks 5 days, and the doctor I saw today pretty much told me Gavin more than likely wouldn't make it. I need LOTS of prayers! I am trying to be positive, but sometimes it's very hard. I don't wanna lose my son. I have been through to much, and I already am in love with this baby. I already have 2 angel babies I will be damned if I lose Gavin!

Alan has been great! He has been here with me and when he notices me getting upset he keeps telling me everything will be okay. I couldn't go through all this without him.

25 weeks

2011-04-27T08:57:00.000-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 25 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I have gained 14 lbs total

Maternity Clothes: Just a pair of jeans Alan bought me. I need to go shopping though!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: I have a VERY active child!!!

Sleep: Other than waking up 4 times a night to use the bathroom, I am sleeping well.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew

Cravings : Taco Bell and McDonald's chicken nuggets

Symptoms: heartburn

Best Moment this week: Gavin's much harder kicks!

Size of baby: 13 1/2 inches/ 1.5 lbs

Baby is the size of a:

rutabaga

Baby bump

2011-04-26T10:04:00.000-05:00

* Let me start by saying this: I am NOT a big fan of having my pic taken. The ONLY reason I am posting this is because I actually look preggo in this one (usually I just look fat LOL). It took me 10 minutes to get a pic that I actually don't mind posting. If this causes you to become nauseous or vomit, I am so sorry! :) :) :) *

24 weeks 6 days

Easter laugh!

2011-04-24T22:42:00.000-05:00

I told my niece I wanted a pic of her and her boyfriend. She decided to sit on the bench and this is what happened:

I forgot the bench had been broken for years! I laughed so hard I cried!

Happy Easter

2011-04-23T23:25:00.000-05:00

Happy Easter Blog Buddies! I hope you have a great day. I will be spending most of the day here:

24 weeks

2011-04-20T09:39:00.000-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 24 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I have gained 12 lbs total

Maternity Clothes: Just a pair of jeans Alan bought me

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: I have a VERY active child!!!

Sleep: Having a hard time getting comfortable.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew

Cravings : Food and lots of food. I am ALWAYS hungry!

Symptoms: heartburn

Best Moment this week: Gavin kicked me so hard I actually jumped! It kinda hurt, but I love every kick.

Size of baby: average size: 11.81 inches and 1.32 lb

Gavin is the size of :

23 weeks

2011-04-13T10:16:00.000-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 23 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I have not weighed since last week, but it could be bad!

Maternity Clothes: Just a pair of jeans Alan bought me

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement:Feeling bigger kicks the past few days!

Sleep: Having a hard time getting comfortable.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew

Cravings :Chocolate!!!! (Oh and Peanut Butter)

Symptoms: heartburn

Best Moment this week: Alan finally felt Gavin kick.

Size of baby: average size: 11.38 inches/1.10 lbs

Gavin is the size of : From now on it goes by months, not weeks, so I will have to use objects instead of fruit. :)

Yes, I know, it has NOTHING to do with a baby, but it's the only description I could find. Gavin is the length and weight of a Harry Potter book.

Marathon Day

2011-04-10T10:15:00.000-05:00

I feel like poop. I either have pink eye or allergies. Not sure which one, but it stinks. So today we are having a sex marathon....HOLD UP IT"S NOT WHAT YOU ARE THINKING!!!!

I love this show!!!! :)

6WS

2011-04-09T08:24:00.001-05:00

You had me at first kick!

The beauty pageant

2011-04-08T11:51:00.000-05:00

My nieces and goddaughter were in there first beauty pageant last night. They all looked so adorable!!! Sorry the pics suck so bad. I need a new camera ASAP!!!

My niece, Grace (kindergarten)

My goddaughter, Makenzy (3rd grade)

My niece, Emily (2 y/o and not happy about the pageant) :)

Gavin

2011-04-07T08:50:00.000-05:00

Dear Gavin,
I love that you are kicking me more. These past 2 days have been wonderful. You have been kicking so much!!! I wish I could describe in words how special you are to me. One day I will tell you what all I have been through. It just makes your kicks 10 times more special. I can't wait to meet you, BUT not anytime soon. You still have a lot of growing to do.

Love,
Mommy

22 weeks

2011-04-06T14:57:00.001-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 22 week

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Gained 8 lbs (not bad for 22 weeks)

Maternity Clothes: Alan bought me my first pair of maternity pants last week!

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: Feeling more flutters during the day (instead of just at night).

Sleep:Always sleepy here lately

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew

Cravings:Cornbread with LOTS of butter

Symptoms: occasional heartburn

Best Moment this week: Feeling Gavin move more and hearing him move around on the doppler.

Size of baby: 10.5-11.8 inches/ 12.7-20.8 oz

Gavin is the size of :

Doctor's appt. today

2011-04-04T17:21:00.000-05:00

I went to my doctor today. Gavin is doing great! He was moving around so much the doctor couldn't hear his heartbeat for longer than a few seconds. :) They also moved my due date up by 2 days. So I am officially 21 weeks 5 days.

We went to church yesterday and he kicked off and on the whole service. It was AWESOME!

21 weeks

2011-04-01T06:13:00.000-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 21 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I am honestly afraid to weigh. I have been eating like a cow lately.

Maternity Clothes: not yet, but some of my pants are getting snug

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: Feeling more flutters during the day (instead of just at night).

Sleep: Haven't slept good the past few nights.

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew

Cravings: Taco Bell and banana pudding ice cream

Symptoms: sciatic nerve pain and occasional heartburn

Best Moment this week: Feeling Gavin move.

Size of baby: 10 1/2 inches/12.7 0z.

Gavin is the size of :

Doctor's appt. and thank you blog friends

2011-03-31T09:49:00.000-05:00

I want to apologize in advance for the long post!

So I went to the doctor yesterday (the kidney specialist). I have had possible kidney stones since I was 15 weeks pregnant. I say possible because they can't do x-rays to look for them. All I know if I had the symptoms and was in a ton of pain. I had a detailed u/s done last week to check my kidney's and bladder. The doctor said IF they found stones I would probably have to have a stint put in (surgery). The bad part is I would have to have it replaced once a month. Which means being put to sleep 4 times before I have this child. NOT COOL!

I went yesterday to get my results. NO kidney stones! I have not hurt in almost 2 weeks so here's hoping they are gone for good! I had a severe UTI and had been on antibiotics for a week and he said that could cause a lot of pain (especially since I was preggo). I have to go back once a month just to make sure I have no infections. Other than that everything looked good! Thanks God!

I want to thank everyone for the kind comments. I am so excited about this pregnancy. Yes, the timing isn't perfect, but I am 29 freaking years old! You all know the struggles I had last year with the 2 miscarriages, and you know how bad I want to be a mom. I still have my fears, but I have people praying for this child, and I am trying to put more faith in God. In all honesty, out of everyone I have told about being pregnant, I have only got 1 bad comment (to my face haha). My family and friends are supportive and the 1 person that wants to run her mouth can kiss my a$$! I am happy and this has been my dream for years. I don't live my life to make everyone else happy. I live my life to make me happy. My boss made a great point when I told her I was pregnant. She said:

"Bridgette, I know that you have not been truly happy since your mother passed away in 1996. You have had a void in your life, and I truly think this baby will fill that void. It's going to be tough to not have your mom there for the birth, but in the long run, I think this is what you need in your life."

So with all that being said, I just want to say again. THANK YOU SO MUCH! When I read your comments yesterday it brought tears to my eyes.

Dear Gavin

2011-03-30T12:40:00.000-05:00

Dear Gavin,
Mommy loves you SO much, but will you please find another spot to lay? You are laying on my sciatic nerve and it HURTS! Also, could you wake up and kick some more? I want some kicks! Dang, I am already a demanding mom LOL. Mommy and Daddy love you so much little man. You have NO idea what a blessing you are to us.

Love,
Mommy

I LOVE THIS!

2011-03-29T10:19:00.001-05:00

I am finally at that stage where I can say I love being pregnant. Don't get me wrong, I have felt blessed since I found out, but those first 18 weeks about killed me! I have felt him kicking this morning. Usually I only feel him at night when I lay down. I LOVE IT! It's the best feeling ever!

My little man (yes, he is shooting a bird) :)

20 weeks

2011-03-25T09:51:00.001-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 20 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I am honestly afraid to weigh. I have been eating like a cow lately.

Maternity Clothes: not yet, but some of my pants are getting snug

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: Feeling more flutters, especially at night.

Sleep: Can't get enough!

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew

Cravings: Taco Bell

Symptoms: still having side pain

Best Moment this week: I am half way there! Plus, Gavin's anatomy scan went GREAT.

Size of baby: 10 inches/10-11 oz.

Gavin is the size of a :

19 weeks

2011-03-18T11:11:00.003-05:00

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 19 weeks

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Gained 3 lbs

Maternity Clothes: not yet, but some of my pants are getting snug

Gender: It's a BOY! Gavin Brooks Foster

Movement: I feel a few flutters, but this morning I felt a MUCH stronger movement.

Sleep: Can't get enough!

What I miss: Diet Mountain Dew

Cravings: McDonalds

Symptoms: side pain (which may or may not be kidney stones) and I still feel yucky sometimes (mainly at night)

Best Moment this week: Feeling that stronger movement. It brought tears (happy) to my eyes.

Size of baby: 6 inches/ 8 oz.

Gavin is the size of a :

I am trying to catch up with my weeks. :)

18 weeks

Drumroll please.....

2011-03-09T11:55:00.001-06:00

It's a BOY!!!!

This time HE was not shy AT ALL. At first we thought it was going to be a repeat of Friday because the cord was in the way. Alan gently shook my belly, and that kid threw his legs straight up and wide apart. I knew what I was looking at, and I know NOTHING about u/s. Yes, it was that obvious! I have to admit the nerves are setting in. I have not been around a baby boy since my nephew was born (in 2000)! All I am use to is girls....I am SCARED!

17 weeks

Latest u/s pic

2011-03-07T20:14:00.001-06:00

This was taken at 16 weeks 6 days. Hopefully tomorrow I will find out what I am having. We went Friday and the kid is definitely stubborn! It had it's legs crossed, umbilical cord in the way, and hands covering that region. So here's hoping he/she isn't as shy tomorrow. :)

The BIG news

2011-02-20T23:33:00.000-06:00

Ok so I was going to blog about this weeks ago, but I had to wait until I talked to my family. I will just let the pic speak for itself. :)

It's been a rough 2 days!

2011-02-18T23:05:00.000-06:00

Tuesday afternoon I started having some serious lower back pain and abdominal pain. I didn't think much about it, but by Wednesday night I knew something was wrong! I was laying in the floor crying because I was in so much pain. I called my doctor and he asked me the standard questions. Do you have a fever? Any pain when you pee? (TMI sorry) I answered no to all his questions and he told me to just take a hot bath and if it got worse go to the ER. Well, 2 hours later I was in the ER. The doctor said I had acute UTI. So my thought was give me my antibiotics and send me home. Nope! He said he was admitting me. My white blood count was very high and he did not feel comfortable sending me home. So they hooked me to an IV and pumped me full of fluids and antibiotics. Let's just say it wasn't fun. I was released today (thank God). I was about to go crazy! I do not do good just laying in a bed staring at a TV for 2 days!

The worse part of this experience was this morning. They had already drawn so much blood from me that every vein she tried this morning kept collapsing. So she finally had to draw blood from my wrist. I am a grown woman and that almost brought me to tears.

My stupid self forgot to tell them that I was allergic to ANY kind of adhesive (tape and band aids) so now my arm looks like this:

I have never been so happy to be home in my life!

Happy Valentine's Day!

2011-02-14T19:47:00.000-06:00

I have had a GREAT day. I woke up with lots of chocolate being given to me. Which I ate WAY too much of today. Then I got this at work today from Alan.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

If only I was 15!

2011-02-11T09:19:00.002-06:00

This is a conversation I had with one of my students Monday:

Student: Miss Taylor....me, you, steak dinner, movie, Friday night. Don't make plans.

Me: I am broke.

S: I am paying for everything, you just show up.

Today's conversation:

S: We are going to go eat first so meet me at the steak house at 6 pm, then we will go to the movies.

Why can't I be 15 again? FREE dinner and FREE movie?!? Oh well, I would like to keep my job so there will be no dinner or movie for me tonight. :) If I was 15 though, I would SO be there. hahaha

FYI- He was just kidding. So before you get all creeped out, it was all a joke, but I found it rather humerous.

My birthday!

2011-01-30T21:17:00.000-06:00

Thank you all for the birthday wishes (on FB and on here). I had a great birthday. I have been so lazy today, and I ate WAY too much cake and cookies. Alan made me a birthday cake:

He didn't have a 9 so he added one candle. :)

His mom made me sugar cookies also. So, needless to say, I am on a huge sugar rush! Time for me to crash (even though that's pretty much all I have done all day). Goodnight blog buddies.

PLEASE help!

2011-01-28T18:59:00.000-06:00

Please help my friend, Gretta!!! She is trying to win this painting for her husband. Please just follow the directions below and vote for GRETTA JOHNS!

To vote: visit the shop's Facebook wall (see link below)
Click on the LIKE button one time
Then write the name "GRETTA JOHNS" on their wall (where it says write something).

You can only vote one time per person so every vote is super important! Thanks again!

http://www.facebook.com/3rdstreetpromenade

I suck!

2011-01-27T09:21:00.000-06:00

I officially suck at blogging. I am sorry. I PROMISE I will get better at this. I haven't blogged because 1. I have been too exhausted too. 2. I have a lot to talk about, but can't at the moment. Like I said though, I will get better. Trust me on that one! ;)

Guess what! My birthday is Sunday. It will be my last "official" birthday. I will be 29. I say last official because I REFUSE to turn 30. So starting Sunday I will be 29 forever! I do not know why I am so scared of 30. Yes, I do. I always picured myself at 30 with 2 kids, a husband, and a good job. Well I am (almost) 29 and I have none of those things and it sucks. So 29 forever sounds good to me! :)

On a serious note. I go to the doctor this afternoon and I would appreciate some prayers. I have been having some dreams about this visit and I am very nervous. I know it's just a dream, but it's still scary. So say a small prayer for me today, please.

Have a great day blog buddies! :)

Please cooperate!

2011-01-11T00:01:00.000-06:00

I am suppose to see a VERY IMPORTANT PERSON tomorrow (and there is still 6 inches of snow on the ground.) PLEASE let the weather cooperate tomorrow afternoon...PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!! Say a prayer that everything works out tomorrow, please. :)

Most of you know I am a big Alabama fan, but I have to say congrats to Auburn. This will be the ONLY time you read this....WAR EAGLE BCS CHAMPS! Great game guys. Great now I have to burn my computer. Ha ha just kidding. :)

It's a blizzard!

2011-01-09T23:20:00.001-06:00

This was taken about 2 hours ago and we have received almost 2 more inches since then! We don't get snow like this in Alabama. The last "big" snow storm we had was in 1993! I will take more pics in the morning and post them for you all. :)

I just measured the snow. As of 11:30 pm we are at 6 1/2 inches!

I don't know if I can do this....

2011-01-05T11:12:00.000-06:00

Let me say now: I am having a HUGE pity party and I am sorry, but I have to let it out!

I know the saying "God will not give you anything you can't handle." I really thing God has way to much faith in me though. I have been a mess today. I think I have been crying since I woke up. My hours have been cut drastically at WG (from 30-7). I HAVE to have that check to pay the bills. And 7 hours a week isn't going to cut it.

So today I had to break down and emailed my real estate agent. If my financial situation doesn't change by February 1st the house has to go. I am devastated. No, I am beyond devastated. I felt so proud when I bought that house. Now, I can't pay the bills, and nobody can help. I am the dumbass that decided to buy a house before I was tenured, and ever since I lost my teaching job its been a struggle. Every month seems to get worse and worse.

To be honest, since October I have not stayed at my house much because I am trying to keep the bills down. Plus I don't have the money to buy groceries so I just stay at Alan's and sponge off him. I hate this. I have always been so independent and now I can't afford to even buy food.

What am I going to do? I have NO idea.....

Sorry

2011-01-04T21:16:00.000-06:00

Don't shoot me (please). After long consideration I have decided I can not share what I wanted to share, yet. I will, I promise. I just can't do it right now. Now is not the time. I am sure I will lose a lot of followers because of this, but you have to understand where I am coming from. I ask that you just give me time. When the time is right I will spill the beans.

Sorry,
Bridgette

What a day! ( BLOG WILL GO PRIVATE AT MIDNIGHT!)

2010-12-31T21:35:00.000-06:00

My sister gave me a gift card to Target. So Alan, Millie (my dog), and I decided to run by real fast. Now, my plan was to leave Millie in the car because we wouldn't be in there long. Millie had plans of her own.

I open the car door, press the lock switch and as I am getting out of the car Millie decides she needs to pee. So off she goes running through the parking lot. I throw my purse in the front seat and slam the door. As soon as I slammed the door I looked at Alan (who was out of the car already too) and screamed "Shit, I just locked my keys on the car!"

I went chasing after Millie, who by this time had made her way to the front of Target and was relieving herself on the bushes. I grab her ~~dumbass~~ sweet little self, and walk back to the car. Now luckily I had rolled the windows down a bit so Millie could get some air, but not enough for me to get my arm in and unlock the door. Just as I was about to call me dad. A van pulls up and the lady gets her grandson to stick his arm in and unlock the car. THANK GOD!

I was so mad at Millie I just wanted to beat her, but I am just glad she did not get ran over. I don't know what I would do without my furry diva.

Just a reminder. My blog will go private at midnight (Central) tonight. If you want to keep reading it I need your email address so I can add you. I have an important announcement to make, and I can't have EVERYONE knowing about it. So that is why I am going private for a while. Sorry. I hope you understand.

You can send me your email address via comment or you can email it to me: kinteacher07@yahoo.com.

All I ask (for the ones that know me in real life) is whatever is said on my blog stays private. PLEASE! If it becomes an issue where my family finds out some how I will have to just delete my entire blog, and I REALLY do NOT want to do that. Thanks bunches.

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT

2010-12-30T12:04:00.001-06:00

I will be blocking my blog again for a while. I have some things I NEED to get off my chest (and I don't want certain people to read about it). IF you want to continue to read my blog just send me your email address.

kinteacher07@yahoo.com

I already have these people saved in my account so if your name is below you do not have to resend me your email address.

Megan
Gina
Gretta
Brooke
Janis
Leslee
Stacey
Taylor

I am going to do this January 1st so please email me before then. Thanks. Love you guys!

VERY short post

2010-12-28T19:17:00.003-06:00

PLEASE PRAY FOR ME TOMORROW!

A white Christmas in Alabama?!?

2010-12-25T13:47:00.000-06:00

Yep, it snowed in Alabama (on Christmas Day!)

Too bad I was here:

Oh well I am off work now. I am going to take a nap, and then off to my grandmother's tonight.

Merry Christmas!!!!

Another $100 gone!

2010-12-20T22:21:00.000-06:00

Thanks to ~~dildo~~ Josh I had to waste another $100 on my car. I told you a couple of weeks ago I had to pay $150 because he doesn't know how to put a tire on, well today I had to ~~shit out~~ ask my dad politely to help me pay for new brakes. Josh put the BACK brakes on the FRONT tires. Yes, it is possible....

Thank God my step-brother works at a mechanics and hooked me up. If I had to pay full price it would have been around $250 b/c I needed new rotors too.

Guess what....

2010-12-18T23:27:00.000-06:00

Alan and I went to a Christmas party last night at his friend's house. We played Dirty Santa. When it was his turn to open his present he said this..." Before I take my turn there is something I need to do." Then he handed me a small box. Inside was a note that said:

Then underneath that was the ring. It's the ring that was specially made for me for when I was 16. It's diamonds from my mom's earrings that she always wore. I can't wear earrings so my family made it into a ring for me. I have always said I wanted to use it as my engagement ring, but there was no way in hell I trusted Josh enough to take care of it. So when Alan and I got back together I told him I wanted to use my mom's ring as my engagement ring. He took the ring from me a while back so I knew it was coming I just wasn't sure when. :) Last night was the night he gave it to me.

Oh I forgot to mention, I said yes! Don't worry, this won't be a "get married in 6 weeks" wedding. I learned my lesson the first time.

Happy Day, Sad Day

2010-12-15T08:42:00.000-06:00

Today is a happy day because it's my nieces 17th birthday. Happy Birthday Noel!

Today is a sad day though. Today was my due date. Today (or sometime soon) I would have became a mother, but it just wasn't meant to be....

Neurosurgeon report

2010-12-14T18:40:00.000-06:00

I went to the neurosurgeon this afternoon. It is NOT a tumor, and they are not concerned at all with it being enlarged. So, what does all this mean? NO SURGERY!!!! :)

2 posts in one day...wow

2010-12-13T23:20:00.000-06:00

Tomorrow I go to the Neurosurgeon to discuss what options I have. Please keep me in your prayers. I am hoping he tells me everything is okay, and I won't have to have surgery. That's what he told me 10 years ago, so here's hoping nothing has changed.

Also, I need some MAJOR prayers. I can't say whats going on, lets just say I have been there before. Please just PRAY! This could possibly be my last chance. Some of you may know what I am talking about, and some of you might be clueless. Either way, I just ask that to send the prayers up. Love you guys!

Who wants a Shake Weight for Christmas?

2010-12-13T09:58:00.004-06:00

It's not working today...

2010-12-11T20:11:00.000-06:00

The "positive thinking" bs is not working today. I am sad. I am mad. I am worried. I am stressed. I go to the doctor Tuesday to discuss brain surgery, and then I go in 2 weeks to discuss having an hysterectomy. It hit me hard that I will probably never have kids. I am not really in the mood to write about it right now just keep me in your prayers.

Can you figure this out?

2010-12-10T09:18:00.000-06:00

One of my students gave this to me:

Do you get it? Don't worry I didn't either. He told me to cover up the top half with my finger:

How stinkin cute is that?!?

How romantic!

2010-12-09T08:25:00.000-06:00

This is how a conversation between Alan and I went down last night.....if you just ate do NOT read!

Alan: Do you know how much I love you?
Me: How much?
Alan: If you were taking a crap and your ring fell in the toilet, I would dig it out for you without hesitation.
Me: Um...thats gross!

Should I be flattered or sick to my stomach? Ha ha I am kidding. It's cute (in it's on little way).

I don't think I told you this story, but a few years ago my dad had an aortic aneurysm. He has to go once a year and have test run to make sure it is looking ok. He went last week and his aorta was fine, but they found a cyst on his kidney. He went yesterday to have an ultrasound on his kidney. Praise God, everything is fine!

I promise

2010-12-08T12:01:00.000-06:00

I promised a friend, I would get better at blogging. Remember when I use to blog everyday? Wow, now I do good to blog once a week. Stacey, I made you a promise, and I am going to stick to it. :) With that being said, my life is very dull, and some of the post might suck, but hey I will try my best.

I have decided to take a new outlook on life. I am not going to spend all my time worrying about "what if." The doctor made a good point yesterday. His first words out were, "Well you have no tumors or aneurysms." All I could focus on was the neurosurgeon part. Things could be SO much worse! I need to put my big girl panties (back) on and deal with it. Life is not fair, but instead of having a pity party, I am just going to deal with it the best I can. Whatever happens, happens. My main concern is not being able to have kids, but its like Alan said yesterday, "There are plenty of kids that are waiting to be adopted."

A minute ago I was on FB and I started looking through my old messages, and what do I find? Messages from Josh. Does it make me sad? Hell no! It finally hit me how bad he was. EVERY message he sent me went something like this:

1. Can I have some money?
2. Where did you hide my "medicine?"
3. Can we pawn ______ (always MY stuff) so I can get more "medicine?"

I am SO SO SO glad I had the strength to call off the wedding. I would be miserable right now if I would have married his sorry ass. See, I am doing good, 2 positive things in one post. :) I can't believe I am fixing to say this, but my family was right about Josh the entire time. I was just blinded by all his BS. I wanted to just get married so bad, I decided to "overlook" the bad stuff. That is until he stole something from me....BUT I won't go there again. Maybe I can tell the entire story one day (when I know my family won't kill me).

Not exactly what I was hoping for

2010-12-07T10:36:00.000-06:00

I went to my neurologist's office today. My pituitary gland is still enlarged and he referred me to a neurosurgeon to discuss surgury. Also, I have to go see an endoctronologist (spelling) to get my hormone levels checked out. The pituitary gland secretes hormones that deal with reproduction. If I have to have my pituitary gland removed my chances of having kids are gone. Also, because it is enlarged I am not secreting the right amount of hormones (which is why I miscarried). All I can say is this sucks!

Prayers please

2010-12-01T11:31:00.000-06:00

Most of you know I have been having severe headaches lately. Well let me fill you in on the entire story.

I started having headaches in high school. I had a "migraine" one time that left me unable to talk or remember where I was. I say "migraine" because that's what the doctor said it was. I have never heard of a migraine doing that, but I never went to med school so who knows. ANYWAY....I went for an MRI 9 years ago, and they discovered my pituitary gland was enlarged. Most likely not a tumor, but I was suppose to get an MRI every 3 years.

Well it's been 9 years and I never got another MRI. The headaches went away and I just figured all was well. Here lately though the headaches have returned with a vengeance. I have a migraine at least twice a week and I have some kind of headache everyday.

With all that being said, I go tomorrow afternoon for an MRI and MRA (MRA checks for aneurysms, since thats what my mom passed away from). So it would be greatly appreciated if you could say a prayer for me....please. :)

November 28, 1993 (part 2)

2010-11-29T10:39:00.000-06:00

Some of you had questions about my last post. I was tired last night when I wrote that (I took a sleeping pill before LOL). So I will give you a few more details.

My sister gave birth to a healthy baby girl 2 weeks later. She was only in labor for 3 hours and only had to push for like 15 minutes. My mom was the only one back there during Noel's (my niece) delivery. The nurses commented they had never seen a delivery go so easily and Tracy seemed to not be in a lot of pain. I guess God figured she had been through enough.

Noel and I- December 15,1993

Her birthday

Thank you for all the kind words. I wish I could go into detail about Larry, but I do not want to upset his family (or my family).

I was asked how my sister has dealt with all this....She was/is a much stronger person than I ever imagined. She also had a 2 year old when Larry died. So she was left by herself with 2 small children. Of course my mom (supermom) stepped in and helped out. My mom was an AMAZING person (but thats a whole different story). Mom helped with Alex and Noel until she passed away in 1996. I will tell you the rest of the story after that, but I have to ask my sister for permission first. Let's just say it's been a rollercoaster!

November 28, 1993

2010-11-28T23:11:00.000-06:00

My sister was a student at The University of Alabama. My mom and I had just returned from Tuscaloosa. We were pulling up the driveway when my other sister came running out of her house in tears. Larry, her husband, went hunting and had not returned. He went hunting in the woods behind our house. He told Tracy to come find him when dinner was ready. She went looking for him, but he was nowhere to be found. Oh, did I mention my sister is 8 months pregnant at the time?

We called Larry's dad (who was a cop at the time) and we called some other friends to look for him. They searched for him for several hours. Now, this is where things get a little hazy for me. I was only 12 and I have blocked a LOT of the details out. All I remember is eventually they found him, in the woods (behind my dad's house). He had taken my dad's pistol and shot himself in the mouth.

Ok, so if I wasn't freaked out enough, a couple of nights later they had the viewing. For some reason they decided (the funeral home) that his body was ok to have an open casket. UM....now I know I was 12, but OMG I took one look at him and went running out. His head was the size of a watermelon (I am NOT exaggerating). Why would you do that to a family?!? I don't know how my sister made it without going into labor.

I put on FB that this was a blessing in disguise. I am not going to go into all the details, but after Larry died we found out a lot about him. He was not who we thought he was...that's all I can say.

I don't want to make this post all about me because the whole family suffered, but people ask me why I take sleeping pills every night....because I still have nights where I close my eyes and see him in that casket. Just like I still have nights where I see my mom laying in the hospital hooked to a machine. So yes, I have taken sleeping pills almost every night for 17 years. I will admit though that things are much easier to deal with since I moved out of my dad's house, and I will also admit this: I have NOT (and will not) step within 20 feet of those woods. It has been 17 years since I have been back there, and I have no plans of going back there ever again!

I hate making bets...

2010-11-26T23:30:00.001-06:00

Alan and I made a bet about the Iron Bowl. If Alabama won, he had to wear my AL shirt, if Auburn won, I had to wear his Auburn shirt. (Same bet as last year.) Well....I guess by the pic you can tell who won the bet.

On a totally different note..seeing this pic made me realize I have lost a lot of weight. I HATE showing pics of me before I lost weight, but here goes nothing. I am on the far left, in the green.

Not the best pic, but I rarely had my pic made when I was 60 lbs heavier than I am now!

Blessing in disguise?

2010-11-23T23:18:00.000-06:00

I do not know if I blogged about my car a couple of months ago, so let me start form the beginning.

A few months ago my brakes started making an AWFUL noise so Josh says. "I know how to change the brake pads. I worked on cars for 9 months in the Army. I know what I am doing." So, I trusted him....why? I have no idea. Anywho, a couple of weeks after he changed them my car started making an awful noise yet again. So him and his dad look at it. He forgot to tighten one of the back tires. He tightens it, all is good.

That is, until a couple of weeks ago. My car started shaking when I got at 55mph. Alan and I figured it was just the alignment. Last night I was coming home from work and it was 10 times worse so I asked Alan to look at it today.

He decides to go ahead and just tighten the front tires (just in case). He looks at the passenger side front tire 2 out of the 5 lug nuts are broke off. He tries to tighten the remaining 3 (in hopes I could make it to the mechanics). The minute he puts his weight on the 3rd one, it breaks off too.

If you are anything like me (I know NOTHING about cars) you are probably wondering how something like that happens. DUMBASS (Josh) did not tighten the front wheel either. So I have been driving around for over a month with a loose tire. The stress of the driving caused the wheel bolts to weaken and then snap.

So now I have to pay a mechanic to tow my car and fix it. I am looking at around $150+....all because of a PILLHEAD DUMBASS.

How is this a blessing? Ok, so technically it is not because I am screwed $150, BUT I am trying to look on the bright side. I was stressing big time because I have NO money for gas. I have a quarter of a tank of gas and over a week and a half before I get paid. The bright side: NOW I DON'T NEED GAS MONEY. Hey, whatever keeps me sane at the moment, and me trying to look at the bright side, is the ONLY thing that's going to help right now.

Giddy

2010-11-21T21:14:00.000-06:00

**** IF you are going to leave a negative comment please don't bother. For once (in a long time, I am happy)****

Alan and I were talking the other day and I mentioned that the next time I get engaged I want to use my mom's ring as an engagement ring. So a couple of days ago, we were sitting there talking and out of the blue he said "give me your mom's ring. I will ask you THAT when the time is right."

YES, I know I JUST got over an engagement, BUT I love Alan with all my heart. The past month and a half I have been the happiest I have been in a while. Yes, we have had our problems, but I really think it has made us stronger. Like I said if you are going to leave nasty comments, please don't bother.

There is a big difference about this engagement (crap that sounded bad.) We are not going to get engaged and then married 6 weeks later. I learned from that mistake. Plus, I want things done the right way. I want him to ask my dad, I want bridal showers, engagement pics, announcement in the paper...blah blah blah (you know, what every girl dreams of). Damnit, I deserve that!

With all that being said, he has NOT asked me yet, and I have no idea when he is going to. It could be tomorrow, it could be months away. Who knows when. All I can say is I am VERY happy and VERY excited. For once in my life things are going right. Its about damn time!

Bills,Bills,Bills

2010-11-18T11:23:00.000-06:00

This is not another "poor me" post. I promise! I went to my cable and cell website to view my bills. I had forgotten that I overpaid them. I did this on purpose because I knew when they were due I would be broke (which I am). So I have 2 bills already paid for. Yay me! It is AMAZING what you can do when you don't have a ~~man~~ boy taking ALL your money. Now, with that being said, I am not bragging. I still am struuggling but hopefully things will turn around soon. If I could get my HUGE credit card bill down I would feel so much better, but I will probably be paying on that until I am 40.

As the song says:

Independent do you know what that mean?

She got to her own house.
She got her own car.
Two jobs work hard you a bad broad!

YES, I KNOW!

2010-11-17T10:59:00.000-06:00

Yesterday, seemed to be "Hurt my feeling's day." I was told SEVERAL times, "You aren't getting any younger Bridgette." I thought that was the end of it...no biggie. Wrong!

Now let me clarify before I tell this story. She was NOT talking about me and did not mean to hurt my feelings.

I was working last night and a girl that I work with was looking at a magazine. On the cover were a famous couple that just got engaged. This is what she said, "It's about time. They are almost 30 and not married and don't have kids. They are going to be too old for kids now." Ok, let's see I am 28, never been married, and I have no kids. Yeah that stung a bit.

I think what hurt the most though was this:

1. I was SUPPOSE to get married a month ago.
2. I am SUPPOSE to be 9 months pregnant right now.

Why did I have to have a miscarriage? Why did I have to get engaged only for it to end? Don't get me wrong, I am glad I did not marry Josh because it would not have worked, but damn what is positive about miscarrying? Nothing! It sucks!!! The hardest part though, my good friend got pregnant around the same time I did and she just had her baby. Do you know how hard it was to see those pictures?

ANYWAY...enough of that. I am sure you are all tired of my sob stories lol. Hopefully soon I will have some good news to blog about. Hey, maybe I will get another check in the mail! :)

To lighten things up I decided to add some Thanksgiving cartoons. Holy Crap. it's almost Thanksgiving?!?

Whoever is praying for me....

2010-11-15T14:32:00.000-06:00

Whoever is praying for me, KEEP PRAYING! I went to the mailbox today and what do I find? THIS:

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU GOD!!!!!

Things HAVE to get better, right?

2010-11-12T21:17:00.000-06:00

I swear when it rains it pours! This is another one of my sob stories, but if I don't get it out its going to be BAD. So here we go....

Six months ago I applied for food stamps. I was/am struggling big time. Then I met Josh who made things 10 times worse. He ran up my credit card, stole from me, lied to me (hell you know the story). My point is I am hurting worse now than when I was 6 months ago. Well guess what I get in the mail. As of November 1st my food stamps have been denied because I "make too much money." WTF?!? So now I have $35 to last me a week and no food. Just great! I am not telling you this to make you feel sorry for me. It just REALLY pisses me off when these people come in all decked out in jewelry and nice clothes and use their damn food stamps to buy food. Then you have me, who is working her ass off just to stay afloat, and I really need help, and they tell me I make too much money. YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING ME!

I can't ask my family for money because then I would have to explain why I just can't use my credit card to get food. I have lied to them a lot about Josh and they have NO idea he almost maxed out my card.

So on that note, I am asking you this. Things have to get better, right?!? Dear God, I hope so because I am about at my breaking point!

My life story....

2010-11-12T09:26:00.004-06:00

This is why I LOVE Eminem....skip to 4:26

[Rihanna]

On the first page of our story

the future seemed so bright

then this thing turned out so evil

I don’t know why I’m still surprised

even angels have their wicked schemes

and you take that to new extremes

but you’ll always be my hero

even though you’ve lost your mind

[Chorus]

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

but that’s all right because I like the way it hurts

just gonna stand there and hear me cry

but that’s all right because I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie Ohhh, I love the way you lie

[Rihanna]

Now there’s gravel in our voices

glass is shattered from the fight

in this tug of war, you’ll always win

even when I’m right ‘cause you feed me fables from your hand

with violent words and empty threats

and it’s sick that all these battles

are what keeps me satisfied

[Chorus]

[Rihanna]

So maybe I’m a masochist

I try to run but I don’t wanna ever leave

til the walls are goin’ up

in smoke with all our memories

[Eminem]

This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face

smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction

hush baby, speak softly, tell me I’ll be sorry

that you pushed me into the coffee table last night

so I can push you off me

try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me

run out the room and I’ll follow you like a lost puppy

baby, without you, I’m nothing, I’m so lost, hug me

then tell me how ugly I am, but that you’ll always love me

then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the

destructive path that we’re on,

two psychopaths but we

know that no matter how many knives we put in each other’s backs

that we’ll have each other’s backs, ’cause we’re that lucky

together, we move mountains, let’s not make mountains out of molehills,

you hit me twice, yeah, but who’s countin’?

I may have hit you three times, I’m startin’ to lose count

but together, we’ll live forever, we found the youth fountain

our love is crazy, we’re nuts, but I refused counsellin’

this house is too huge, if you move out I’ll burn all two thousand

square feet of it to the ground, ain’t shit you can do about it

with you I’m in my f-ckin’ mind, without you, I’m out it

[Chorus]

Love the way you lie

Counseling

2010-11-11T21:23:00.000-06:00

Alan and I went and saw a preacher yesterday for counseling. It went okay (I will explain in a minute.) The man was pretty good. He got me to open up and talk about things in my life that really hurt me. Trust me when I say, it is NOT easy for me to open up. Let me rephrase that, I can write about my feelings (hence the blog) but when it comes to talking about them...not so much. I opened up a little and explained my genuine concerns. The bad part....this is the preachers last week at that church. UUUGGHH...seriously?!? So we are still looking for somebody that we can talk to (more than once).

Honestly, I think it's just going to take time. I am looking for a quick fix and I know that's not going to happen. Just keep us in your prayers. You know what we (me and him) have been through and if I did not love him like I do, I would just say screw it and move on, but I can't (and don't want too!)

On a totally different note, I don't think I have ever mentioned on here about my obsessive compulsion with a certain someone....

OMG!

For those of you who might not know who this is, it is Eminem. He is so freakin HOT! Damn, I sound like a horny teenager. Sorry. I have collected myself and slipped back into 28 year old mode. :)

Why am I talking about Eminem on my blog? I have no idea, other than I heard a new song of his tonight. I just wanted all my blog friends to know that he is HOT! :)

What a weekend!

2010-11-09T01:04:00.000-06:00

Jeez, I need an off day just from all the craziness this weekend brought. I am just physically, mentally, and emotionally drained. Between working at WG and life...I am ready to give up.

Four people have quit Walgreens in the past 2 weeks, and has he hired anybody to replace them? NO! So this weekend we only had 2 people working (plus a manager) in the whole store. Did I mention we were busy as hell?!?

Today has been rough. One minute things are ok, and the next minute I feel like I am losing my mind. Alan agreed that we should go to couple's counseling. So I have spent all afternoon trying to find someone to counsel us (for free). Since we aren't married insurance won't pay for couple's therapy, but in all honesty we HAVE to do this. I want this relationship to work. We have been through a lot together and I don't want to throw it away. I know I probably make it sound like it's all his fault, but its not I have things that need to be addressed too. Our communication sucks! I have been so hurt in the past that I pretty much just keep everything bottled up inside. So pray that we find somebody (good) that will counsel us.

On a totally different note. Guess what I put up tonight....

Hopefully since I put it up it will get me more excited about Christmas, and put me in a better mood.

Now that my neighbors FOUR German Shepards have finally shutup (I HATE those dogs)!!! I am going to try to go to bed and pray for a better day!

Only at Walgreens

2010-11-07T23:41:00.000-06:00

Only at Walgreens would you find this:

A plastic reindeer that poops brown jellybeans....YUCK!!!!